A Spirited Run

I’m not a runner. Well, technically I trained for a 5K and completed it with only a few walk breaks but I think there’s a reason you don’t see 3.1 car stickers. Anyway, because I’m not a runner I’ve never experienced the delightful-sounding “runner’s high.” That moment when you transcend sidesplitting, shin-aching drudgery to a Zen-like oneness with your path.

I have however known the enjoyment of being so engrossed in an enriching activity that it felt like I was “in the zone.” Things were just flowing, my body was an extension of my mind and they were in perfect harmony. Man, that’s an awesome sensation.

There’s also the uniquely satisfying feeling of epiphany. That aha moment when an insight strikes. Two previously uncorrelated ideas come together in a magnificent pairing that just makes sense. Once you’ve thought the thought, you can never un-think it.

What I find interesting about all of these situations is that they often follow what neuroscientists and human behaviorists would describe as a struggle-struggle-exasperation-burst sequence. When we quit trying to control the outcome and instead give in, that’s when the subconscious magic happens.

You’re running, you’re running, you’re hating life, you’re running, you’re running, and out of nowhere all is well in the world.

You’re encountering resistance to your project, you’re trying to find new alternatives, you get ready to start a new task and suddenly you find you’re knocking the project out of the park.

You can’t figure out the solution, you pull an all-nighter just turning the problem over and over in your mind, you finally opt for a shower and boom, the answer stares you in the face.

While all of this is fascinating (IMHO) you may be wondering what it has to do with spirituality. Indulge me a few minutes more.

It was Friday. Since I give up meat every day (though technically I’m vegetarian by choice, not as an act of devotion) I had decided that this Lent I would give up dairy and eggs on Friday as a special sacrifice; I’d be a Lenten Vegan.

While I wasn’t fasting per se, eating food without cheese is super boring so my lunch had been pretty basic. Then it was time for daily Mass at 5:30 and the act of kneeling plus fewer (and blander) than usual calories paired with a high-pitched hum in the back of church left me feeling tired. Exhausted, really.

I offered up my fatigue and acknowledged that I had enjoyed more food, more sleep and less stress than many millions of other people in the world that day. I kept on “churching,” and suddenly the hum became an energetic vibration resonating within my very being. The feeling of exhaustion became surrender and I released that pesky trait of trying to keep the whole world in order all on my own.

My hunger and tiredness became an invitation to experience the Mass differently. In that moment the scripture readings took on a different tenor, the pleasant smiles of others in the pew took on greater warmth. My environment was changed because I was changed. I knew that I was unequivocally at the right place at the right time. Or more truly, at His place at His time.

It wasn’t a complete transformation. Let’s be honest, about 35 seconds after this blissful moment my stomach growled, my back ached and I pulled my coat around my shoulders to fight off the chilliness of a sparsely attended church.

But I could still savor that moment when I let go, and let God. It was the taste of a spiritual runner’s high. (And for the record, it was way better than cheese.)

Where have all the Prophets gone?

Late-90s singer Paula Cole pondered about the loss of rugged cowboys. My question is less relationship-related and focused instead on the mouthpieces of God. Those great, enlightened sages like Isaiah and Ezekiel. Judging purely by the antiquity of those names I'm led to ask, Where my prophets at?

Spoiler alert: The answer is under your nose. Literally below it by about an inch.

Most tales of the prophets may be just that; tales. Exaggerated fish stories. I don’t say that to diminish the importance of prophets nor their message. My point is simply that prophets, like Jesus, were humans. Dudes and dudettes placed on this very Earth. 

What was unique about prophets was their ability to share the revelations born of their relationship with God. We’ve heard that God has spoken through the prophets (heck it’s in the Nicene Creed) and I believe that. But should we assume that prophets were extra-holy? Extra-human? Free from error?

Surely there are examples of prophets contradicting one another. So, what? Does that mean God is a flip-flopping hypocrite? Or does it mean that just like recording a song and playing it back over MP3 versus LP versus Spotify, the replay quality degrades. It’s imperfect. When God speaks through humans it’s not God “live” – it’s God “on-tape.” 

So how do you get access to a live recording? PRAY!

Each one of us can call upon that ultimate holy musician and listen quietly for the sometimes imperceptible (though sometimes booming and clanging) voice of God. And then we go out and tell our story. We talk about our relationship with God and the promises it reveals. We become prophets.

Now I’m sure scholars would argue (probably accurately) that I’m using the word “prophet” too loosely. And maybe I’m not even using it correctly at all. Though a quick Google search educates me:

Maybe I’m not so far off, or maybe the more proper word is “evangelist” or who knows. Mea culpa. If my words fail it’s because they’re human words. If my meaning sticks, it’s because it’s God’s message. 

I guess in summary, being a prophet doesn't necessarily mean a life lived on the corner of main streets with a cardboard sign. It may not mean leaving your career and family behind. Being a prophet means following the call God sets out uniquely for you. For me, it was publishing this post. For another prophet, it might mean sharing a smile with somebody discouraged or taking an extra moment to show kindness to a stranger. 

If you are inspired to proclaim God's will in any shape or form, then according to Google and my rationale, YOU are a prophet. May the Lord help each of us to earn that title daily.

Reflections from Wisdom 2.0 - Day 3

The final day of the conference, or just the start of a new chapter?

There was a lot of meditation today. And thus, a lot of progress, a lot of momentum, a lot of motivation -- all through an act of stillness. It still boggles the mind; until you boggle the stillness. Yeah, I don't know what that means either but you heard it here first, folks.

I started the day with a movement class held by a famed choreographer. We essentially rolled around on the ground while chanting "Buhmmmm" and "Bahmmmmm." I'm not sure there was any mystic tradition associated with it but I can't deny that letting myself be free enough to do so along with 20 other spirited individuals did make me feel like I was 'game on' for whatever else the day held. I retired to my room and typed several pages on an analogy of the mind/body/heart being like a glass container of liquid and the soul/God/observer as a particle floating in the liquid of our mind chatter / body sensations / heart feelings. I need to polish it a bit, but I'll share it eventually.

Chade Meng Tang, the Jolly Good Fellow of Google and author of "Search Inside Yourself" and one of my primary reasons for attending the conference was doing a breakout session with Buddhist PhD, Shinzen Young. The topic: Science and Meditation. They are both self-purported geeks and they weren't kidding. While I could 'surf' with most of their waves, I definitely felt out of my depths. But intrigued and interested in learning more about their mutual goal to democratize enlightenment in our lifetime.

Next was a hosted table conversation on the practice of Qigong. I have always been curious about Tai Chi and although I didn't (and still don't) know if Tai Chi has any relation to Qigong, I was compelled to attend. Master Mingtong Gu introduced a brief overview on the core purpose of Qigong and then guided us in a physical practice. But that's just it, it's not a physical practice. Well, it is. Wait. As best I understand from his primer and the reading materials provided, Qigong is a martial arts practice that uses sound, breath and visualization to work with energy. So when we did the 'physical' practice it was a practice that used our physical body to elicit sound vibrations which awoke and opened our emotional fascia to allow us to present loving kindness to the new cavities. Yeah, I know, a little woo-woo. But I loved it. And I am hooked on learning more.

The afternoon concluded with back-to-back (by my choice) meditation sittings with renowned teacher Sharon Salzberg. Following the second sitting she shared stories about her long history with meditation. She spoke of how people would reject the practice saying 'their' meditation was swimming or hiking or listening to music. While she didn't begrudge them those acts, she encouraged them to also learn how to meditate by focusing on the breath. Because when you find yourself in a stressful work environment and about to say something you'll regret to a co-worker across the conference room table, you can't very well jump in a pool or put on headphones. By returning to the breath, we return to the body, we return to the moment, we return to our priorities and we return to our values, making us much more likely to behave or react in a way that is beneficial. The three skills she associates with meditation are 1) Concentration (de-fragmenting and creating focus) 2) Mindfulness (fostering an unbiased perception of the present) and 3) Compassion (the ability to evaluate a situation with loving kindness, like a freeze frame capturing the good history along with the bad rather than a hyper focus on one or the other).

The closing comments from the conference were a call to take our knowledge out to the world; share the wisdom 2.0! I made several commitments to myself on how to do this, one being to return to my non-attended, though not-forgotten blog and put these 'thinks' out into the world for others.

Reflections from Wisdom 2.0 - Day 2

Day 2 of Wisdom 2.0 was extraordinary and featured an impressive lineup of speakers such as Arianna Huffington and Alanis Morissette. One of the early sessions was a talk from 'Search Inside Yourself' Googlers: Chade Meng-Tan, Bill Duane and Karen May. As they began their introductions, three young women walked onstage displaying a banner for SF Eviction. In true make-a-stand style, one of the women pulled out a bullhorn and muddled "SF is not for sale!" to an audience unsure whether this was an act of performance art or an actual protest. It became clear it was the latter when stagehands started ushering them aside. One woman held tightly to her banner and began a tug-of-war, though her smile betrayed the glee of being able to create a scene was more than her pride of passion for her cause. The action subsided and brilliantly, the Googlers encouraged the audience to take a beat, practice mindfulness and check in to explore our own reactions to conflict. What happens biochemically; is our heart beating faster? When confronted with people who have a strong opinion, do we meet it with judgement or with compassion? To me, it was an excellent example of mindfulness in action. Well, I suppose it was actually mindfulness post-action but still that's something.

Alanis Morissette spoke eloquently about the difference in quality of expressing herself on a stage to an audience versus a more intimate one-on-one interaction. There was a parallel to the way many people post or tweet their point of view, feelings, etc. to a digital audience and how that differs from traditional, interpersonal connections. She was joined by author and psychiatrist, Dan Siegel. They explored the spectrum of digital tools as an addiction (people check their devices incessantly to get a 'hit' of dopamine) versus digital tools as an obsession (people check their devices incessantly to keep anxiety at bay). The main takeaway is that digital tools are neutral entities that serve a purpose (just like food, exercise, material possessions, etc.) and it's in how and why we use those tools that creates dysfunction. For instance, a text message can be used to stave off intimacy, or to foster it.

The chock-full day of mindfulness concluded with a meditation lecture and Q&A with spiritual sage, Eckhart Tolle. Most of what he shared was like a bubbling stream of semi-connected, ultra-intellectual thoughts dispersed between animated facial gestures and caricature-like expressions. What stuck with me was his urge for people to live in the present. All we have is now. And now. And now, again. We distort our experience of the present because we see it through the clouds of old story lines and unhelpful mind chatter. When we can be aware of the present, appreciate the present, shift the balance of focus from mind to body then we can actually experience the presence of the present. He also conjectures that amateurs may encounter challenges if they try to establish the practice of mindfulness initially among drama-creating friends, button-pushing family members or frustrating co-workers, instead he suggests we should start with beings that have less likelihood to stir up stories and chatter. Like trees. Eventually perhaps move to dogs -- which Eckhart says humans love not because they are cute and fuzzy but because they are pure consciousness. So. Tree. Dogs. Then, maybe, humans.

Reflections from Wisdom 2.0 - Day 1

Today, I had the privilege of attending the Wisdom 2.0 conference (an off-shoot of the Google UnConference series). There were about 2,000 attendees from around the globe. The founder spoke of his vision to have technology-makers mingle with wisdom teachers because he recognized that our tech advances have given us devices that inundate us with knowledge and data but not necessarily wisdom. He wondered how we can ensure our uber-connected world also includes the contact required to remain human. The conference topic: How can we live with Wisdom, Awareness and Compassion in the Digital Age?

Many of the progressive Silicon Valley heavy-hitters were present and presenting. Arturo Bejar, Director of Engineering at Facebook shared a personal story of how attending a previous Wisdom gathering had helped create the conditions to meet individuals that furthered a sort of compassion quotient for Facebook users when flagging inappropriate materials. The changes they made based on insights gleaned from wise conversations made their effectiveness jump by 40 percentage points. The heads of Learning for Google, Twitter and LinkedIn led a Q&A panel discussion on how they help to create the space for mindful learning in their tech organizations.

Scientist, Dr. Larry Rosen has been studying how technology affects the brain. It is no surprise that multi-tasking and constant device-checking is impairing our brain function. He offered some simple, practical tips to help create balance. During periods of heavy concentration (such as studying or strategic planning), he suggests we should allow ourselves one-minute technology breaks every 15 minutes. In other words, check your device for 60 seconds and then place it face down and to the side of your work for the next 15 minutes. Gradually extend to 30 minutes. This avoids triggering the anxiety responses in the brain and allows our focus to rule.

Dr. Rosen also suggests 'resetting' the brain throughout the day. While it used to be common for employees to take a smoke break, he encourages them now to take a brain break. Every 90 - 120 minutes, simply take 5-10 minutes rest to essentially reset the brain's chemistry. This can be done through meditation, focused breathing, light exercising, laughing, practicing a new language, playing an instrument or many other activities. Finally, simply being aware of what technology distractions are most disruptive to you personally and consciously choosing when to engage with them can make an enormous difference. Bottom line: the more technology and interactions we have, the more we need to take brain breaks and tune into our own consciousness.

Mindfulness guru, Jon Kabat-Zinn led a guided meditation. It would be impossible to capture the beauty of that moment so instead what follows are a few of his most lovely quotes from a quick web search.

"The motivation for doing meditation is to not miss your life."

"You can't stop the waves but you can learn to surf."

“Maybe the fear is that we are less than we think we are, when the actuality of it is that we are much much more.”

“From the perspective of meditation, every state is a special state, every moment a special moment.”

A Network Perspective

Juniper Networks was founded on innovation and it continues to run deep in our DNA today. We believe in the value of an open network, and this means more than just the technology we create. Juniper also recognizes the value of open people-networks. This idea is explored in the following video with our esteemed partner, Rob Cross.

Rob Cross, associated professor of management at the University of Virginia’s McIntire School of Commerce and research director of The Network Roundtable is a leading expert in the field of social networks and has co-authored The Hidden Power of Social Networks: Understanding How Work Really Gets Done in Organizations as well as Driving Results Through Social Networks. His interest in social, people-networks is around building a network-based organization.

According to Rob, a network-based organization can more easily adapt to the fluid, dynamic reality of our time. They are future oriented and increase innovation while reducing complexity. And they multiply the impact of key talent. Network-based organizations can quickly recognize opportunities and challenges and then coordinate the appropriate responses. 

Recently Rob spoke at a conference in the Valley on the topic of Social Networks and the Network Perspective. He was kind enough to share a few minutes of his time with my Juniper colleague, Chris Ernst.

Enjoy!

Bad day rant

I am having a really bad, no good, terrible kind of day. Okay, it’s actually not that bad – I have buckets to be grateful for and nothing has actually gone wrong.

Yet I just feel so “bleh” and dejected. What’s up with that?

The most interesting part is that I don’t care to make myself feel better. I could rattle off a million things I could do that would put me in a better frame of mind. I have all sorts of coaching tips and tricks to knock me over the doldrums fence. And I have prayers galore that would instantly raise my spirits. But I’m not interested. I am such a happy, up, all is great-all the time kind of gal that I’m finding some strange satisfaction in being unhappy. Now really, what is up with THAT?

Maybe it’s actually an act of compassion. Because I am usually so positive myself, perhaps it is sometimes difficult to relate to others that were born with a more pessimistic (or as they would likely say, reality-driven) streak.

Maybe it’s an act of surrender. If God and the stars and nature and whatever other voodoo-jou-jou is conspiring to make me have a rough day, then I’m best to just accept it. Why fight the toxicity when you can just let it flow right past.

It could be an act of prescience. Maybe this is just the wake up call I need to realize some ailing element in my life. I may look back at this day in weeks to come and recognize that my bad day was the sign of some major change.

Perhaps it’s an act of observation. An opportunity to watch it, question it, examine it – but not attach to it. How very Yogi of me.

Or maybe it’s just a not-so-bad, not-so-great, not-so-terrible day and one should not waste timing writing about in a blog. And instead move on to whatever the next moment holds. Because maybe it will be joy or it will be sadness, but this current bleh moment is moments away from being in the past.